Under the Marquee

I realized it’s been 4 years to the day since I gave my final bow on Broadway. 4 years since I’ve been on a stage.

Of course life organized so I’d end up back in the city for this date. I decided to head up to the theater and spend the evening under those twinkling lights that used to be the bulk of my world.

So many emotions as I sat there on the sidewalk.

Grief: allowing myself to continue to process what I left behind.
Nostalgia: sweet memories of laughter and family.
Gratitude: that I’m no longer constantly tired and doing the same thing 8 times a week.
Pride: in what I did.
Wonder: at how amazing it was.

And how amazing life continues to be.

An amalgam.

Feeling nothing but happiness 100% of the time is a lot like doing 8 shows a week—very hard to maintain and unsustainable in the long run. True joy lies in allowing ourselves to feel the full spectrum of our emotions. Radical, broad acceptance of everything that we feel in every moment.

And by becoming experts at allowance, it becomes a lot easier to let it all pass rather than hold on. And the passing of it all, well that’s heaven.

Full, big, rich, flowing, bombastic, sound life. May you make it so.